I was dumb for more than half a decade

Why did I start Speaking?

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I recall seeing a good amount of my classmates face several challenges and issues that I knew I had solutions to.

I watched them fight those battles, struggle with some actions that we could have dealt with together.

I watched many fall of their usual capacity and potential while I couldn't speak.

I tried to help severally but I couldn't still mutter a word,

I had rehearsed sometimes facing the mirror, still I was dumb.

I fought it daily, but I was defeated regularly.

All I had to say died, especially when I saw those things we could have fought and conquered with my words just being expressed in it's littlest form.

I cried a lot,

I battled,

With thoughts that silenced me,

I fought,

"What if they look down on me as I speak to them?"

"What if they insult me because we are seemingly of the same level and don't have enough proofs to be of help to them?"

"What if you're talked down on?"

"What have you achieved or what milestone have you attained that you want to talk to tour mates?"

I always ended silent because I couldn't answer them.

Till I finally found courage,

I was tired of watching people fail around me,

tired of people having the wrong perspectives of themselves,

tired of my peers settling for mediocrity,

tired of seeing fellows not maximize their potentials.

I couldn't sit and watch anymore.

I was shy🤭,

I began with a first try,

I mumbled up my words😔,

I stuttered😪,

till I finally spoke🗣.

I speak fluently now😅, even though I still regret being dumb for too long.

By the grace of God,

my voice has made many,

realign and not decline,

become stars without unnecessary scars,

competent and independent,

triumph and not dry off.

This is my story and I encourage you not to remain dumb, the world is not ready to receive your great light that will shine forth in nations just by hearing your voice.

I can write to you today cos I am no longer dumb.

Learn, develop, and grow for your voice to remain relevant in this world filled with noise.

I'll ask you this one question,

Will you watch others fall off because of your Lack of courage?

Do/Did you battle with being silent when you know (knew) your voice will count the most?

My heartfelt letter❣ to you.